tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12857908728081115932024-02-20T12:35:13.941-08:00Strange ConceptionsMusings on Being Donor ConceivedPronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-32097282536888176862012-05-18T13:55:00.000-07:002012-05-18T13:55:05.812-07:00Not WastedMy year of delusion - the delusion that I was donor conceived - was not completely wasted.<br />
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It allowed me to remember things about my family that I had repressed.<br />
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It allowed me to unblock some of my feelings and create a fictional father who might be just like me and who might just like me. This is slowly leading me towards grieving for the parents I didn't have. And potentially healing.<br />
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It has ensured I will always know deep in my gut what it feels like to not know your biological origin. Just today, I had to buy a local paper which lamented the lack of a sperm bank in my country and featured a sob story by a 39-year-old woman who couldn't find a known donor (this is possible in my country) so she went to another country for treatment. A psychiatrist explained to the general public that the child will be fine not knowing who the father is as long as (s)he's properly raised and prepared or something.<br />
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And everything inside me screamed You Ignorant Fools!<br />
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You can't just expect everything will be unicorns and rainbows if you're nice and tell early. Many, if not most, people just need to know who their biological parents are and no amount of love in the world will fill that hole for a person who can never know.<br />
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Advocating will be easier, actually, if there's nothing personal about it.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-14754214566978690882012-05-11T07:33:00.000-07:002012-05-11T07:39:15.876-07:00The origin of the family rumorI wonder where the family rumor that I was donor conceived originated.<br />
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Perhaps they used IUI or IVF and then I was born, looking nothing like my father or his family. Could people have thought I wasn't his? Could it have occurred to him too?<br />
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Could he spent my entire life wondering if the doctors perhaps used someone else's sperm? <br />
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Some things are still just too bizarre to be explained in any other way.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-10008724436576942342012-05-11T06:06:00.002-07:002012-05-11T06:06:25.619-07:00I'm NOT donor conceivedI finally did a DNA test - my father is my father. I have no other fathers but him.<br />
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The
family story my aunt told me must have taken a wrong turn somewhere -
I'm sure they did use ART to conceive me and that the "donor" bit got
attached to the rumor somehow.<br />
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I spent a year on an emotional rollercoaster for no good reason. I made an absolute idiot of myself.<br />
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But
there was something good about it: the idea of a possibly sane father
out there who might be like me and who might like me enabled me to <i>feel</i>.
I gave myself permission to love this non-existent man and grieve for
him. I had never grieved the father I couldn't have. I hadn't felt any
real emotions towards my father (or mother) for decades. I had blocked
all emotions.<br />
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Now they came back - for a person who
doesn't exist. It proved how vulnerable and, really, pathetic I am. I
longed for one man in particular to be my real father - because he was
nice and enjoyed my company and liked me and shared my interests and
gave me books of poetry and short stories. Which was much more than I
ever had with my father.<br />
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It was so easy to let myself believe this. To have a
tangible reason why he couldn't love me. Why he resented me. Why I had
to be sooo grateful just for being allowed to exist (I'm sure they had
to use IUI or IVF and I did cost them something - at least, the shame he
had to endure in front of the doctors) and why "You look like your
mother" was so often thrown at me (I guess that was my entire sin - I
didn't have to be another man's offspring to be resented, only not be
his carbon copy - I really look <i>nothing </i>at all like him or his family).<br />
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I
made myself believe I could expect nothing from him or his family -
they owed me nothing. This made me remember how cold they were towards
me.<br />
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But they owed me love and support, no matter who I looked like. My father should have loved me. He owed me that.<br />
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I
might take some time off to process all this. I'd spent a lot of time
obsessing over something that wasn't even true. There are other, real
things to focus on, and although right now I feel drained and exhausted
and deflated, it can only get better from here if I focus on my daily
life from now on. I hope.<br />
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I learned and understood quite a bit about how DC persons and adoptees feel like. I will never be able to think in stereotypical terms on these issues again. I will always be an advocate for absolute openness and honesty and the right for everyone to know their biological origins.<br />
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If every DC person was certain to receive an original birth certificate at age 18 and lying to your children wasn't possible, these reverse crazy situations wouldn't be possible either.<br />
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I'm sorry if anyone feels lied to - I deceived no one on purpose.<br />
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I will not be deleting the blog - I stand by my opinions. My situation turned out to be different, but others are still being denied the knowledge of their roots.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-11475992870877863002012-05-06T01:43:00.001-07:002012-05-06T01:43:59.042-07:00The genetic mirrorKnowing your genetic parents gives you a very basic and normal, but so commonly underestimated and misunderstood, privilege of seeing the traits you potentially have reflected in their actualized form.<br />
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You see who you potentially are and who you can become. This is the genetic mirror all human beings should have a right to at least take a peek at.<br />
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When you don't know your biological parents, growing up and discovering who you are is like trying to determine what you look like by feeling your face with your fingers. You can guess the shape of your nose and chin and ears, but you have no idea what they look like to others. You can also never discover the color of your skin or the color of your eyes.<br />
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When you're raised by genetically unrelated people and are kept away from your biological parents, you may never discover, nurture and develop some really interesting parts of who you inherently are.<br />
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My suspect is particularly suspicious because he fits so well as the missing central piece of the genetic mirror. Who I remember him as is so much like who I never allowed myself to believe I could be, but actually am. When I describe him, I'm actually describing a less known me.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-23386555989424451142012-05-02T13:03:00.002-07:002012-05-02T13:03:32.072-07:00It's not fairPart of the reason why I'm so obsessed with discovering the whole
truth about the circumstances of my conception and my biological
paternity is that I feel the current situation gives my narcissistic
social father an insane kind of power over me.<br />
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He is probably the only person alive who knows how I was conceived and - quite possibly - who my biological father is.<br />
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He
knows something very important about me that I'm not allowed to know.
I'm sure it's great fun for him to be able to treat me like a child in
that way.<br />
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I have tried to give him a chance to tell me.
I have asked him direct questions about their attempts at having a
child and the circumstances of my conception.<br />
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His
answers get more and more implausible and fantastical. Sometimes it
seems like he's taunting me and flaunting it. The story changed from
them trying for 12 years to only maybe not contracepting for a year or
two, with variations in the meantime. The last time we spoke about it,
he told a fairy tale of my conception that involved a romantic island in
the middle of the Adriatic sea! When I asked him where my daughter got
the red streaks in her hair, as none of his or my mother's ancestors had
this, he flat out said, staring me in the eyes: "It must come from your
husband's side of the family." I said no, I know even more generations
of my husband's family, and reddish blondish hair has not appeared
there. He repeated: "It must come from your husband's side of the
family."<br />
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If my <a href="http://strangeconceptions.blogspot.com/2012/04/update-on-my-suspect-i-received-some.html" target="_blank">conjecture </a>is true, I'll have connected the dots and found out all on my own. That would make so many things right on so many levels.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-31633930363941202992012-04-27T15:48:00.002-07:002012-05-02T13:03:42.671-07:00Update on my suspect: I received some photosI have his chin and his cheeks and his nose and his forehead and his ears. His eyes, too, but he shares that with my mother. The resemblance is not <i>breathtakingly </i>striking, but it's <i>there </i>and it's <i>real </i>and it's <i>haunting </i>(I look quite a bit like my mother's family, too, and look NOTHING AT ALL like my social father). <br />
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I got these photos from the relative who inherited his house - she was his niece. He was her paternal uncle. Which, if the whole idea is true, makes her my first cousin and thus a very good candidate for a DNA test, right?<br />
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She'll be visiting in September and I'll probably be waiting until then to find out for sure.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-1786592466385565632012-04-21T01:20:00.001-07:002012-04-21T06:45:31.370-07:00DualismNone of this could have happened if we hadn't split humans into body and spirit and claimed that bodies were completely irrelevant and spirit was all that mattered. This is NOT Christianity, it's the heresy of dualism. But Western civilization is immersed in it without even being fully aware of this.<br />
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This is how people can base their lives and families on the idea that nurture is what truly matters, and nature only provides the lowly base materials we'll get to form in our own image. That love is all you need. That family is defined solely on the basis of feelings, intentions, conditioning. That where our bodies came from has nothing to do with ourselves and who we are and how we feel and think and act.<br />
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Those who were raised by their biological parents can do this more easily - they can draw the nature/nurture, body/spirit, DNA/upbringing line wherever they please and claim "I didn't INHERIT my temperament from my mother, I'm like that because she raised me." They have the privilege of wholeness and integrity that they can then divide at will, drawing that imaginary line where they need or wish it to be.<br />
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Those not raised in their biological families know different. But they lack even the proper terms to express a desire for wholeness in a culture steeped in dualism.<br />
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<a href="http://adoptionandfaith.blogspot.com/2009/05/dualism-in-adoption-st-johns-univ-2000.html">Here</a>'s a great post on dualism in adoption by a Catholic priest who's an adoptee.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-61247763513764085942012-04-10T02:36:00.006-07:002012-05-02T13:03:54.576-07:00One brief fantasy of a fatherFor a few moments, I thought I had some reason to believe I could guess who the donor was.<br />
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As there was no sperm bank in the country I was conceived in and fresh sperm was most probably used, so the donor had to be at hand for every attempt, I thought of a possible candidate.<br />
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The husband of my mother's aunt, who lived in that city with her. They helped with the DC procedure for sure and I was named after the aunt. The aunt was infertile, so they didn't have children. They're relatively distant relatives, but we went to visit them every year when I was a child. They sent us money during a time of crisis. He always talked to me a lot and insisted on my XYZ ethnicity (his own, and my maternal grandfather's, which seemed like quite a stretch to me at the time). He wanted to see me even after his wife, the only one related to me, died. I spent several days with him and we talked a lot. He gave me a bit of money and I expressed gratitude. He seemed annoyed that I was grateful for so little, while the distant relative that was going to inherit his house didn't seem grateful at all (I failed to see the connection - he didn't owe me anything at all, hence the gratitude).<br />
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I look a bit like him. He taught. I teach. He published a book in the field of humanities. I publish articles in the field of humanities (maybe a book in a few years too). He liked poetry and history. So do I. He was very interested in roots. As am I, quite obviously.<br />
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We really clicked. I really liked him. It would be great. He died but I knew him. No one's life would even be disrupted if this was true and I found out for sure. <br />
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But he was almost 70 years old when I was conceived, I then realized. That's quite impossible, isn't it? Would anyone even have considered his sperm? I really don't think so.<br />
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It was fun to think in concrete terms about a father for a while. To have a name and a face and traits and interests to base my existence and identity on.<br />
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And these things immediately assumed far less importance for me. I definitely understand how people who know their origin don't think it's all that important - it's not when you know it.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-16849935214562919462012-04-09T08:21:00.000-07:002012-04-09T08:21:38.260-07:00If the tables were turned - a fantastical analogyThis is just a bizarre fantasy. It doesn't mean anything. It doesn't prove anything. But it's fun:<br />
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I'm 13 years old, angry, and have a gun. I really, really, really want a proper father. It's such a strong desire that I can't think rationally. I have "daddy blinkers" on. I go from house to house and see happy-looking kids at a table, having dinner with their dad. The kids look great - smiling, well-fed, well-dressed. I bet their daddy would do just fine.<br />
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I enter the house and offer the kids some money in return for their dad. Ecstatic, they sign the papers and run off to buy toys with the money I gave them. At gunpoint, I take their father prisoner and escort him to my place.<br />
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He is then forced to play the role of my dad. He has to support me, both emotionally and financially, drive me places, help me with homework, maybe even pretend he's my biological father. I'll inherit all he owns, naturally.<br />
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At some point, he really wants to be reunited with his kids. I tell him: "They're not your real kids. They're just donors. They donated you to me. They sold you for a few bucks. I'm your intended kid. I really, really, really wanted you. I wanted a dad so much for so long and just look at what I did to get you. You should be grateful you were so wanted. Most dads aren't so loved and wanted, you know. You're special." <br />
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His kids later realize what they've done, so they try to find their biological father. They wonder where he is and if he's all right. But they're told: "Hey, you signed the papers. You waived your rights. You can't just disrupt this happy intended family now."<br />
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This couldn't happen, of course. But the main reason it couldn't happen is that kids are weaker and have fewer rights than adults. Kids can't just relinquish their parents. Kids can't just choose a parent. Parents in some situations have these kinds of power over kids. And if this sounds eery, and you wouldn't want to be in this father's shoes, this is how some of us feel were treated.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-64856803695589408182012-04-09T07:53:00.000-07:002012-04-09T07:53:15.814-07:00EugenicsI imagine my narcissistic social father would have been appeased with the idea that whatever sperm they were using came from an educated, intelligent man - which it quite probably was in 1981 in a country without a sperm bank where a clinic had to provide fresh sperm on the spot - he would be able to pass the child off as his own and actually score additional brownie points on being the father of a smart little thing.<br />
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And, boy, did he do that! He bragged about me, he showed me off, he talked to teachers, he took all the credit. I was always top of the class and they never invested a dime in my education, as I always got scholarships.<br />
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When my mother died and he found a new girlfriend, he lost all interest in me until I was defending my M. Phil thesis (at age 26; he graduated from university - just barely - at age 28) and the possibility of being in the limelight again appeared to him.<br />
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After the defense, after he had bragged to the professors, he said "Thank you for making this possible <i>for me</i>" and then said he couldn't understand a word of my <span class="st">exposé. That he couldn't even understand what it was about. It was in our native language, not in English (which, by the way, he can't speak, nor is he capable of learning a single foreign language, even after years of study).</span><br />
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<span class="st">He said he lost me after I'd used the word "dichotomy". No, actually, he said something else and I only inferred that "dichotomy" was the word he'd found so challenging.</span><br />
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<span class="st">I didn't know I was DC back then, but I was shocked and somehow saddened. How come my own father is so, ummm... intellectually challenged that he can't understand simple, normal words, let alone the subjects that interest me so much? </span><br />
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<span class="st">Not understanding it didn't keep him from appropriating it - he knowingly discussed me with my mentor and the committee. </span> <br />
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I now wonder, had I at least been allowed to have <i>occasional </i>contact with my biological father and his family, if I'd have had <i>some </i>support and direction towards the scholarly stuff that interests me so. If I'd have had <i>some </i>understanding and someone to talk to about the topics that I obsessed over. I thought I was just weird and had weird interests, but now I allow myself to think of myself as an ugly duckling who might have benefited from at least <i>some </i>contact with a swan or two.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-26602833576541282862012-04-09T02:55:00.003-07:002012-04-10T03:59:43.852-07:00Others without fathersAn argument for continuing with the practice of anonymous sperm donation I really dislike is "So many children are born without knowing their fathers for various reasons beyond our control. Therefore, there is no right to know one's father, because you can't always enforce it."<br />
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First, that's like saying there's no right to private property because you can't always enforce it, as there are thieves in this world who never get caught by the police.<br />
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Second, google "I never knew my father" or something to that effect and you'll find oodles of heartbreaking stories by people whose right to know their father just wasn't enforceable. And these are mostly not DC adults or even people who had abusive stepfathers - just human beings who were never allowed the chance to meet their biological fathers and who are still suffering. Some of them fear they don't have the right to their grief, and some even apologize for it, but they still can't help feeling it.<br />
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Third, yes, injustices happen in this world - but do we really want to defend doing this to children intentionally by noting that it happens? That would be like parents wishing to genetically engineer a blind child (they themselves can see, but they really really want a blind child) and justifying it by saying that so many children are born blind every day and many are blinded in accidents beyond our control, and that particular child wouldn't even exist if they weren't allowed to engineer it. So the child could only be grateful, right?<br />
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Everyone knows so many blind people and they're all just fine, really. We know they're fine because they don't say to everyone around them "You know what? Being blind sucks. Life is a struggle every day. I don't think my life is any less worthy than anyone else's, and I certainly don't wish my existence away, but being blind is hard."Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-48993282705899787352012-04-09T02:44:00.000-07:002012-04-09T02:44:44.097-07:00The mother's feelingsThat just might be the definitive criterion in society for determining official familial relations and what the child is expected to feel.<br />
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It's not DNA (donors are not fathers, right?), it's not sex (conceiving via IVF with your husband's sperm still makes him the father, right?), it's not nurture (your stepfather who raised you from day one after your father died while your mother was still pregnant with you does not have to be your "real dad", right?)<br />
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It's how your mother feels and to whom she is loyal. She can claim when you're 18 that your real father, who'd knocked her up behind a bar and whose name she never knew, is your real father and should have been paying child support - if he could have been found.<br />
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Or she can claim that your father, who'd been married to her for years, but left her while she was pregnant for a younger, more beautiful woman, and whom you never met, is nothing more than a sperm donor, and your real father is the wonderful man she married afterwards who loved you like you were his own.<br />
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Or she might keep the memory of her late husband, who died while she was pregnant, alive by stories, pictures, mementos, and often tell you about your real father, who was such a lovely man - although you quite like her new husband and he's the only dad you've ever known.<br />
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And the child is expected to feel whatever the mother feels - DNA, nurture and sex notwithstanding, as we're not talking about rational arguments when we discuss who the real father is, we're talking about feelings - and if the child feels differently, that comes at the high price of betrayal and disloyalty.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-71215308344559048912012-04-05T08:07:00.004-07:002012-04-05T09:28:43.525-07:00Rumor Has It...I can't get over the movie <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0398375/">Rumor Has It...</a> with Jennifer Aniston that I saw months ago. It's beyond infuriating.<br />
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<a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0398375/plotsummary">Here</a>'s a plot summary:<br />
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"> Sarah Huttington, recently engaged, goes home to Pasadena with fiancé Jeff for a family wedding. She hears a rumor that "The Graduate" (book and movie) are based on her family. Did her grandmother and her mom have flings with the same man just before her parents married? Is she a strange man's child; does this explain why she doesn't fit in? Was her mother happy? Is she too facing a loveless marriage? Where can she seek answers: her mother's dead, her father's a pleasant naïf. Ask her salty grandma? Better to ask the man in the triangle, the real Benjamin Braddock. With Jeff's blessing, Sarah heads for San Francisco, looking for the key to her past and to her future.</span><br />
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So far, so good, right? Much is made of her desire to find her real father and connect with him. Her quest is shown with a lot of sympathy.<br />
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Well, what happens next is this: she finds BB, her potential father, and he tells her that he can't be that because he's infertile due to a football injury. So they too have a fling which makes her the third generation of women in her family who's done that.<br />
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The next day, however, she meets BB's son, which naturally shocks her, and she confronts her once more potential father with it. He says he wasn't lying, he really is infertile, and his son was donor conceived, but he doesn't know it, and shouldn't find out now. Sarah promptly promises to keep this secret.<br />
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What's wrong with this picture? Why am I so angered by it that I find it hard to collect my thoughts?<br />
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In short, it makes me feel like a second-class person. Or make that third-class person: second-class persons are those who don't know their fathers and are looked down on because of that, but at least their desire to know is not denied. The donor conceived have no rights to facts or feelings.<br />
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The dc boy is shown as a clueless, spoiled, arrogant brat. He certainly ought to be grateful to have been created and even loved and accepted by BB, one is inclined to feel. And he certainly couldn't handle the truth - he's so obviously inferior to Sarah in her quest zest.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-88961914601785733572012-04-03T01:19:00.001-07:002012-04-03T01:24:18.290-07:00The fear of biological offspringWe hear it a lot - adoptees and donor conceived alike - that we should not be allowed identifying information about our biological parents because we'd stalk them, harass them, and generally ruin their lives.<br />
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Where does this fear come from? What does it indicate in those that feel it?<br />
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In my not so humble opinion, it proves they do believe what they pretend they don't: that<br />
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1) children sundered from their biological parents will somehow be damaged and different and potentially dangerous. Psychos. Nurture by those wonderful intending parents won't be enough to fix these young humans, and they'll be walking time bombs.<br />
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2) the desire to know one's biological parents is so normal, so natural, so strong that nothing will come in its way. They know it in their bones, though they may not admit it, that they themselves would do whatever it takes to break down the barriers separating them from knowledge of their kin.<br />
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3) there's something wrong about surrendering your child, whether through adoption or by donating gametes. Those who did this performed a service to those wonderful intended parents, so we must officially laud their actions, but of course they'll keep this a secret from their loved ones, their friends and families, for the rest of their lives, and if anyone found out about it, their lives would be ruined.<br />
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(But, wait, why should it be wrong? Can't you tell your girlfriend, before you propose, "Oh, and by the way, I already have kids with lots of other women. Probably"? Don't they have picture books entitled "Your daddy was a donor when he was in college: you have dozens of siblings you'll never meet" or "Your older brother was surrendered for adoption but we kept you"?)<br />
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The <a href="http://www.bionews.org.uk/page_137523.asp&dinfo=4KF8KEELOwwFxO6nInLhhIAG">victory of Victoria</a> is a great step forward and I'm glad that someone somewhere has recognized that the right to the truth about yourself trumps someone else's "right" to secrecy and lies.<br />
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I'm sure this will never happen in my neck of the woods, but I'm really happy for those DC in Australia who'll finally have their answers.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-78850582158562505802012-01-18T06:53:00.000-08:002012-01-18T06:53:45.416-08:00Intent as a basis for discriminationIt's quickly becoming my #1 pet peeve. Does it have a name? Or can I dub it "intentism"? The prejudice according to which those persons who intended to parent a child (and sometimes couldn't) are by default in every way <i>better </i>than those who didn't (but sometimes contributed "raw materials" up to and including the entire child, as is the case in adoption).<br />
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It is presumed that the sperm donor, the "birth" mother, and that even more faceless entity who knocked her up are by definition inferior. The discrimination is presumably based on the fact that intending parents usually invest <i>money </i>in obtaining other people's children. This money proves that they really want the child, they deserve it, and, since they <i>have </i>money to spare, they're instantly worthier human beings.<br />
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The offspring of these inferior parents should be grateful they were accepted by these superior social parents as their own.<br />
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But just what <i>is </i>so great about intent? About the burning desire to have a child, first your own, and then, if that fails, anyone's child? <br />
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Has there ever been any serious longitudinal research into the emotional effects on children (into their adolescence, at least) of being raised as very <i>very </i>wanted children by parents very <i>very </i>desperate to have them?<br />
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Is there even any proof that <i>planned </i>children fare better in life than 'oops' kids?Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-91275213236018667212012-01-13T14:28:00.000-08:002012-01-13T14:28:17.470-08:00Instead of a biological attachment...Couldn't help it. Had to share a <a href="http://chinaadopttalk.com/forum/index.php?topic=78790.0">link </a>to a thread on a forum where an adoptive mother complains about how her "daughter" won't attach to her but has instead dared to call her grandma, who babysat only up to 2 days a week, "mama." This was apparently because the evil woman dared to hold the toddler, overstepping "boundaries." The evil grandma was then banned from seeing the child who loved her too much.<br />
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This is what my "father" did. Instead of a secure, biological link, one that can't be threatened by other nice, nurturing people in a child's life, all he had was my "attachment" to him. So it had to be forced. And my mother, my only biological parent, pushed aside, all bonding between us, starting with breastfeeding, sabotaged by him from day one.<br />
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I love it when my kids relate to others. Hug them, kiss them, talk to them. I love it that my daughters love their grandparents and their uncle and even my friends. No attachment of theirs ever takes away from me - I'm their mother and always will be. It's a scientific fact.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-29338892455269472252012-01-13T12:06:00.000-08:002012-01-13T12:41:59.896-08:00Inspiring: Erik Erikson. 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I wondered why I loved Erikson so much and why he seemed to be the only one to truly understand identity issues. I also admit to thinking the name "Erik Erikson" was a bit funny and thought badly of his parents.<br />
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Now I understand. I believe we should all (symbolically) do the same: if we have no hope of ever knowing our fathers, we can "refather" ourselves by ourselves!<br />
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This wonderful, sane, compassionate man never knew his father's name. He had elaborate fantasies about his real father. Anna Freud, his analyst, told him to stop it and let it go, but he refused.<br />
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And he was still wonderful. In fact, it was his black hole in the place where his father should be that probably prompted him to be the wonderful man that he was.<br />
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There's hope for us yet!<br />
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Here's a full biography I <a href="http://www.google.rs/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=erik%20erikson%20changed%20name&source=web&cd=2&sqi=2&ved=0CCoQFjAB&url=http%3A%2F%2Fhighered.mcgraw-hill.com%2Fsites%2Fdl%2Ffree%2F0073382701%2F284309%2FChapter_09_Erikson.doc&ei=q5IQT-PWF-6P4gSUsZjoAw&usg=AFQjCNE8UrmMkWDEjztGyC1-BD3CDzn5jg&sig2=avX0iR19IImxhGoO7gJ_lg&cad=rja">love</a>. It's in Word form. It paints a full, not always flattering picture of him, which includes the negative consequences of his identity confusion stemming from never knowing his father.<br />
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This is from a site I don't exactly love. But it's informative: <br />
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"Erik Erikson was born in Frankfurt, Germany, on June 15, 1902. There is a <i>little </i>mystery about his heritage: His biological father was an unnamed Danish man who abandoned Erik's mother before he was born. His mother, Karla Abrahamsen, was a young Jewish woman who raised him alone for the first three years of his life. She then married Dr. Theodor Homberger, who was Erik's pediatrician, and moved to Karlsruhe in southern Germany.<br />
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We cannot pass over this <i>little </i>piece of biography without some comment: The development of identity seems to have been one of his greatest concerns, in Erikson's own life as well as in his theory. During his childhood, and his early adulthood, he was Erik Homberger, and <i>his parents kept the details of his birth a secret</i>. So here he was, a tall, blond, blue-eyed boy who was also Jewish. At temple school, the kids teased him for being Nordic; at grammar school, they teased him for being Jewish. <br />
...<br />
When he became an American citizen, he officially changed his name to Erik Erikson.<br />
... <br />
Erik, son of Erik."<br />
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Here is the <a href="http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/erikson.html">source</a>. Italics mine. While the text is informative, I find the repeated word "little" patronizing, dismissive, and insulting.<br />
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And <a href="http://www.nndb.com/people/151/000097857/">this </a>makes so much sense:<br />
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"Erik's new stepfather was his pediatrician, Theodor Homburger. Homburger, who insisted on being referred to as Erik's father, conferred his surname on the boy in 1908 and finally adopted him in 1911. Despite this it became apparent, with the arrival of three half sisters, that Erik held a very different place in the family as the adopted stepson. Throughout adolescence he increasingly identified as an outsider, both within and in the local community. He was teased at school for being Jewish, and at synagogue for being tall and blond. His stepfather refused to accept his intense artistic inclinations. "Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-8857441763420079432011-12-30T11:09:00.000-08:002011-12-30T11:09:33.724-08:00Hope?A good friend of mine has miraculously discovered it might be possible for me to find SOMETHING out. Records about donors were apparently kept at the fertility clinic where I was most probably (or quite possibly?) conceived, although donor conception was not official at the time (1981) or in any way regulated by the law.<br />
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So, possibly, in some filing cabinet, the idetity of my real father might lurk (although I actually don't yet know for a FACT that I AM donor conceived - although I KNOW it based on family rumors and the fact that I look absolutely nothing like my "father" and neither do my kids).<br />
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And it would be illegal for them to reveal the identity to me.<br />
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So I asked the friend's friend - a person with connections among the doctors - to ask about the following things that really concern me, in order of importance:<br />
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1. Did my mother have fertility treatment there and what kind - IUI or IVF? Was her husband's sperm used or a donor's?<br />
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2. If a donor's sperm was used, what information am I entitled to? Can I know his name OR surame (as this does not infringe on anonymity)? His ethnicity? Occupation? Level and area of education? Color of hair, eyes, height, blood type, medical history, ANYTHING?<br />
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(Hey, medical history comes last for me. It's often touted as the reason we might want to know about the donors. Not for me. I don't need more stuff to worry about.)<br />
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3. Could the clinic contact the donor and ask him if he'd be open to anonymously - or not, whichever he prefers - exchanging a couple of emails with his biological offspring for the purpose of gathering general information which wouldn't necessarily jeopardize anonymity? Or could the clinic act as middleman in such communication? (I'm interested in general, harmless stuff, such as family interests, aptitudes, hobbies, temperaments, nothing scary.) <br />
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4. If it was IVF, how many embryos were there in total?<br />
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(I find it's important to me if I have discarded siblings that didn't make it for any reason. As in, Why me?)<br />
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Thoughts?<br />
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What would YOU want to know if you couldn't know the PERSON? What information would you try to get?Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-47149673275438637992011-12-23T12:36:00.001-08:002011-12-23T12:36:38.274-08:00And another one<a href="http://eprints.qut.edu.au/738/1/rose_sperm.PDF">http://eprints.qut.edu.au/738/1/rose_sperm.PDF</a>Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-91274535929621889692011-12-23T12:24:00.001-08:002011-12-23T12:24:54.746-08:00A good read<a href="http://eprints.qut.edu.au/737/1/rose_fromabundle.PDF">http://eprints.qut.edu.au/737/1/rose_fromabundle.PDF</a>Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-86065224447297472782011-12-23T10:51:00.000-08:002011-12-23T10:51:07.664-08:00My fatherIs most probably of a different ethnicity than most of my previously supposed family, but the same ethnicity as my mother's father. Which would make me 75% that ethnicity. I don't even know the language. But I look like "them" and have always really, really liked them and felt a sympathy and affinity for them.<br />
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I never imagined him or fantasized about him. It seemed useless. But I'll never meet him. DC wasn't part of any official system at the time. There are probably no records. The clinic won't reply AT ALL to even my most mildly worded emails ("I am wondering if donor insemination was practiced by your clinic in 1981 and if there are any extant records.") <br />
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And then one night I prayed to see him. And then I had a very vivid fantasy in which I managed to find him and he was a nice, warm, sweet man I look like a lot. Interested in literature or languages or psychology - it kept changing.<br />
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It was easy to see him as kind because he most probably received no money - it was a time before remuneration for donors.<br />
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And I felt peace and closure.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-10589716353152262412011-12-23T10:07:00.001-08:002011-12-23T10:07:54.324-08:00How learning about being DC helped me love MY kids (x-posted)There's a reason why being donor conceived matters practically in my journey.<br />
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Finding out about NPD has opened many healing pathways for me. I have felt angry and relieved and happy and alive since I found out.<br />
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But only since I found out I was donor conceived have I allowed myself to feel <i>sad</i>. And to <i>grieve</i>. Because I know I've always somehow known that I couldn't really expect my father to <i>love </i>me. I've <i>always </i>known that. I've always known at some level that he owed me <i>nothing</i>. And I couldn't bring myself to grieve the father he couldn't be because of his personality disorder. All I could feel was the sheer <i>relief </i>of not having to think of him as the perfect father any longer.<br />
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But there was still a black hole I was unable to face because I didn't know it was there.<br />
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When I allowed myself to believe there was a father out there I'll probably never know, I started grieving. And feeling sad at times.<br />
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And being more alive than ever.<br />
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And finally really, truly, totally, madly loving my children.<br />
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It's the strangest thing. It just happened. It's like something snapped inside me. Like something burst inside me, releasing liquid joy, allowing me to really <i>love </i>my kids.<br />
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A voice inside me said: "They're <i>mine</i>. They're deliciously, wonderfully, tangibly mine. They smell mine and taste mine when I kiss them. There's a bodily joy in the fact that they're mine and no one can take that away from me."<br />
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This changed everything. Everything. I wasn't a bad mom before. I did stuff right. I felt a tender love for them before.<br />
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But the difference is indescribable. I love them like a mother loves her children. Like an animal loves her cubs. This is real and physical and intense.<br />
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There was a block there. And the block was a little voice inside my head saying "Parents can't really love children," which I apparently learned from my childhood. This script didn't fully go away once I reinterpreted it as "NARCISSISTIC parents can't really love children." Part of the script always included also "NARCISSISTIC parents can't really love OTHER FATHERS' children." <i>That </i>was the full script I had learned. And only when it all came out was I capable of unlearning it. Because my children are mine.<br />
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Does that make <i>any </i>sense at all? I know it sounds crazy. But it's true.<br />
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I've never felt more alive or more joyful. I'm actually on good terms with my social father at the moment and pray for him. My heart aches for my real father, whom I'll never meet. And I'm the happiest I've ever been.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-75800937820752822472011-12-17T12:38:00.000-08:002011-12-17T12:38:04.109-08:00Wanted, chosen, selected: oh mySo many things in ART land that are couched in positive Orwellian Newspeak are actually scary when you see them from the child's perspective.<br />
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You were wanted? Well, not you - <i>their </i>child was, but you'll have to do, so try extra hard to fulfill all their hopes and dreams and soothe their infertility pain. That's the reason you exist. If you're not good enough, you may just cease to exist - they made you for that, after all. How does <i>that </i>make you feel?<br />
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You were chosen? Well, not exactly - you were adopted because they wanted a child and you were available, although in some cases adoptive parents pass up an offered child if it has an alcoholic or addicted mother. How does <i>that </i>make you feel?<br />
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And if you're a product of IVF, it's possible you were selected. That is, genetic testing was done on all your brothers and sisters, and you showed no signs of abnormalities, so the doctors selected you. Your defective siblings are probably destroyed. You were lucky not to be among them. How does <i>that </i>make you feel?<br />
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The truth is, ART are just not pretty. So a fairy-tale ways of narrating the stories of these conceptions were developed to deny that. But reality lurks behind them all. And the children will come to know this reality when they outgrow the fairy-tale stage.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-84012949502683268432011-12-17T11:56:00.000-08:002011-12-17T11:56:24.637-08:00Cloning is betterWith cloning, the child knows what genetically influenced stuff to expect. The child knows her parents - they are her actual grandparents. The child is biologically identical to a parent, which might endear her to him or her.<br />
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I'm being facetious as I don't exactly endorse cloning. But it's still true.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1285790872808111593.post-84792411611997586752011-12-09T11:26:00.000-08:002011-12-09T11:26:50.723-08:00You're OursDoes every child have a foundling / changeling fantasy? Or just those children growing up in a (narcissistically) dysfunctional family? Or just those children picking up on some level on being donor conceived / adopted?<br />
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Whichever it is, I shared a fantasy of this sort with my parents once: "So," I asked smilingly, "isn't it possible that I was confused with another child at the hospital and that I'm not really yours?"<br />
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"You're ours," they replied with a stern, concerned look on their faces. "That much is certain. Never doubt it." My mother told me about seeing me for the first time at the hospital and seeing that I had her eyes. This proved it I was theirs.<br />
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Not only did I know then that to question this was irrational. Emotionally, I discovered it was somehow unpleasant for them and forbidden for me.Pronoia Agapehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07818746040570182407noreply@blogger.com0